To Live is to Love the Pain

A New Age

The King — Wed, 14 Dec 2011 21:11:05 +0000

Just like a song says: A new age has begone. Not really. Looking at the next week in general makes me feel a bit lost, and a bit hopeful. Weird images psychiatrists make people guess go around my mind. They make me expect an answer to all the things that have gone wrong, or got more complicated. I need to sever those weird images and get on with my life. I’m sorry if you expected this to make any sense to you. This whole blog is half-secret, half-public. Its a secret to you, dear reader, and its public to me, its owner. I’m not being rude, just stating a few facts.

I have university next week, happy about that. Listening to Coldplay – Paradise, its a good song. It makes me thing there is something amazing waiting for me in the future. In a hole where all things sleep, in a dark corridors, where money and power hides. Those things kinda became less important to me. Now I just look for pleasure, but not anything bad, but the kind of pleasure you get by looking at a painting, in other words: Art.

Life goes on, no matter if things stay unsaid or just thrown out on the streets. Naked feelings born and forgotten, unwanted. Naked in terms of uncomfortable, of course. Man… sometimes it feels like I’m losing my mind, getting rid of it. I’m in search of tender feelings, a reason to believe in L-word.

Stay cool, new year is approaching, happy times. They maybe end up rapped up in sadness and mistakes, but we’ll have to see how ti turns out. Maybe I’ll let you know, after all.

And the line of thoughts goes on to infinity… Take care.

The plan X

The King — Sat, 03 Sep 2011 10:54:41 +0000

Here’s what you are going to do if uni fails. You will dedicate to producing products such as Audio Books, printed books. You will market and sell audio books and digital books (PDF) for cheap.

If everything goes down, hopefully it wont, you will execute that plan and make thousands of euros. Ok? Ok. Cheers, now go study and stuff. After tonight I will be studying for the exam which will take place on 15. of september 2011.

God help us all.

Maybe a true story

The King — Tue, 02 Aug 2011 09:01:33 +0000

Once, long time ago, I knew one person who was attracted by new technologies and science fiction, since childhood he wanted to have a lab. Explore and collect knowledge. At the age of 17 he got his first computer, at the age of 21 he wrote 2 small handbooks about computers, made around 10 websites, learned the basics of a few programming languages etc. Now he discovered books, stories. His second love. He began to read and write because that was all he could do without funding and yet create something completely new.

At one point, he thought of running away when every possible goal seemed far away, he needed to do something with himself. He felt empty and alone. He thought he was made for something much bigger than himself.

One day, at the age 22 or 23, he finally did it, he ran away, gone to the big city to make something of himself. But it didn’t work, he wasn’t accepted there. So he ran away in a small spot and stopped, took many books in that small space with him. And thats when it began, the most exciting time in his life. Mind and body, mind… and… body.

Had enough of everything

The King — Sun, 10 Jul 2011 17:23:52 +0000

Hill up ahead

The King — Tue, 15 Mar 2011 14:18:45 +0000

2011. Hm. Doesn’t sound so interesting when said out loud. Another year, another age, another time. It feels good to just write it down, sort of letting it go out of my soul to anywhere… like the song once said.

Today it rained for a bit and it was cloudy all morning, now the sun is shining again in the afternoon. I like the sun, we didn’t have much of it this winter, it was so gloomy people started to be angry at each other for minor or no reason at all. It makes me think about English people and their long rainy days. I don’t think I could survive long there in England or Scotland.

I’m listening to a horror audio book called “I am Legend” and it’s about vampires, of course. It was writen in 1950′s, the writer even inspired the big Stephen King who is the only one I could call a modern and awesome horror story writer. I hope to bi a writer one day, on 1st april my first ever, book will be available. I don’t know yet will I let it be free or will I be selling it and how. There is about 15 more days to that day.

I’m studing serbian grammer right now, stupid exam from the 1st year of the course, I hate it so much… I hope to pass it soon, as in, as soon as possible. Styding is boring. I’ll go grab some air, take a shower and get back to studing. Maybe I won’t be that sleepy then.

Cheers. Life is good and the only one you will ever have, so LIVE IT.

Perfect Time

The King — Sun, 28 Nov 2010 20:27:00 +0000

I think this is the perfect time for me to mention one great thing: Photo session. I think it will be great for me to make one photo session where I dress awesome and with a bunch of girls in the photo I should look good, no? I think it really should improve my… image Yeah, and a personal website who will make me a real celebrity. Mmmm, yummmy.

Besides, I’m a writer, I write an amazing novel. Fantasy novel who will enter the hearts of so many people, I hope. More on that and something I call: My personal progress in future posts.

Stay awesome.

Thats just weird.

The King — Tue, 24 Aug 2010 18:30:00 +0000

Looking at this blog, I notice how lame I am from time to time, or all the time. At least always when I turn to this it. This from this point of the summer, and in this year, sucks. Uni looks bad… I want too many things, sort of expect too much from myself. I try to turn to many ways at the same time and move my life forward. It’s not working good enough mainly cause I’m so, so lazy that I have trouble dealing with it.

It’s not that I’m this lame, its just that I don’t turn to this blog when times are good, then I just enjoy myself. There have been moments that I will remember for a quite some time, like going out, lots of fun there. Lots of beers too.

I still have too many things to deal with, and that makes me just stand still and wonder what to do first. It sucks, if anyone is following this blog for whatever reason, here’s one small advice: Don’t think of too many things, don’t do many things at once, keep your focus on one thing cause it kinda depends how your success is going to work out, if I may say that way. Anyways, this place is as private as I can make it, I don’t do ads and stuff… so I don’t expect anyone to follow this little thing called my life.

Now I shall go back to thinking and being lazy to do anything, and being mad at myself for that exact situation. I beg the universe to help me…

Fuck it up

The King — Tue, 01 Jun 2010 09:34:54 +0000

Man I get disappointed and destroyed sometimes. Brtually. Sometimes. People’s stories are their lives at the same time. This song unter is probably the best love song on the world for me at this moment.

Walking
Waiting
Alone without a care
Hoping
And hating
Things that I can’t bear

Did you think it’s cool
To walk right up
To take my life
And fuck it up
Well did you?
Well did you?

I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise(surprise)
Touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you makes me die inside

Walking, Waiting
Alone without a care
Hoping
And hating
Things that I can’t bear

Did you think it’s cool
To walk right up
To take my life
And fuck it up
Well did you?

I hate you!

I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise
And touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you makes me die inside

I’ve slept so long without you
It’s tearing me apart too
How’d it get this far
Playing games with this old heart
I’ve killed a million petty souls
But I couldn’t kill you

I’ve slept so long without you

I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise
Touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you makes me die inside

Ugly dream last night

The King — Thu, 27 May 2010 09:05:32 +0000

I was in a bathroom looking at the open door in a house with damaged walls. There were some people showing up and I wanted them to go away. After I was alone in that bathroom lying in water, looking at old door that were open. Right next to the door shadows started to appear, I saw human figures at first.. and I know I shouldn’t be afraid so I wasn’t. After a few forms of shadow, one appeared in a form of a big butterfly that took all of that piece of wall, and was getting bigger and bigger and fear started to rise in me. As the shadow was getting bigger, taking up all of my line of sight, moving parts of it that were in the middle of that black big butterfly were closing on me, and fear took over me for real and it woke me up.

Tags: ugly,+dream

“Life is taking an unexpected turn”

The King — Tue, 27 Apr 2010 07:23:19 +0000

This morning I just got back from the devils house. Made an appointment for tomorrow half past 9. I hope I’ll manage to make that deal the best way possible cause I’m aiming at getting a car -finally-.

I also need to get on the 3^rd year of my uni, thats one of the vital points in my life right now as well. I should probably get back to studing English Literature, its not that boring its jus that I’d rather read some scientific book about programming, like the one I started last night, its about JavaScript programming and its awesome .

I can’t say that I’m very happy with everything but at this point everything moves forward, more or less. Which is good.